Transfer Success

...was totally surreal. We were already back to pick up our babies from frozen daycare!! I was nervous that there would be a hiccup because the FET cycle has gone so smoothly (unlike every hurdle before the fresh & during!!). I wanted to hear that both embryo made the thaw, (which they did) and I also wanted the doctor to have a smooth try at inserting the catheter into my cervix (and she did). I was a lot more emotional this time during it because I now have a little sweet cherub face to attach to those sweet embabies. Watching them on the U/S enter my uterus was beautiful and scary at the same time; I got all teary at the reality of the fact that we were actually back for round two already. IT CAME TOO FAST!!! LIFE SLOW DOWN!!

It couldn't have gone smoother, the environment was really relaxed as was I, and I got to come home and watch Miracle on 34th Street while B made me some warm mac n cheese. There may or may not have even been a nap in that schedule. Say whaaat?? Telling me to go home and "couch rest" for 24 hours with a toddler and a husband who's gone for season was comical. However, he took the day off and was able to let me post up for a few hours and rest. He's a good man!

In all the ramblings this blog as seen regarding infertility, there are a couple things I know for certain:

1. B & I make a pretty damn good team. Conceiving while holding hands (hello super powers!!?) in front of 4 medical personnel, in a sterile room without having any pleasure isn't super awesome. Find someone who can make it light hearted along with you because the process is anything BUT lighthearted. 

Lucky hat from Ireland, cross & Josie medallion, hatch and attach socks. GAME STRONG!

2. I am a badass. I repeat, I am BADASS! {my painful PIO clumps in my rump, subQ bruises, and Cs scar all prove it). Fighting this stupid fight aint for the faint of heart. Learn to praise yourself when you're feeling a little mighty. 

3. In this journey I have become closer to God and gained an abundant amount of patience whereas before I had very little. For that I will always be thankful.

No matter what the conclusion of this cycle is, I will always have Adlee and that brings me a great amount of peace. I will always be "Strong as a Mother". It's been very different this round as I don't feel so desperate, if anything I have more anxiety of expanding my family and all of those changes it will bring, much like any other woman TTC. Nothing worth having comes easy, and I'm 100% trusting that whatever result we get in the next few weeks is absolutely meant to be.

Let the 2WW commence! Tuck in tight little embabies, Mama is happy to have you home!

They totally look like me don't ya think??! :)

XO,

Andi

HERE WE GO!

Turns out, blogging is NOT fitting in my already narrow window of free time, ha! I planned to document this journey much like I tried with my fresh cycle, but with a toddler, full time job, basketball season (single Mom life) AND the holidays fast approaching.... ain't happenin'. But that's ok! Because this time, there really isn't a whole lot to document. If an FET cycle was what conception was all about for us, I'd have 100 cycles! Seriously, piece of cake compared to a fresh IVF cycle. I will not EVER do another (shudders). These embryo are what we have and that is final ;)

So the cycle is basically oral meds and 1 shot of Lupron daily. I'm already done with Lupron, had my lining check yesterday (everything looks beautiful!) and started the dreaded PIO shots in the booty this a.m. Next to those? Complete breeze! I've been too busy to really process what is even happening this round, which is both good and bad. It's great because the last time was just all consuming both physically and mentally draining. This time? Not many side effects at all. With managing everything stated above, I really don't have time to worry until bed. My concerns are if it will work, if it won't. Will I have another terrible high risk pregnancy? I don't look forward to being in back pain, hand numbness, weight gain, peeing all night and not sleeping as which pregnancy does to ya! But, who DOES look forward to that? Eye on the prize. Eye on the prize!!! I worry if we'll have twins (we are transferring 2 of our 3 left this cycle), I worry that we'll have none. What if they don't all make the thaw? Normal concerns I presume, but just comes with the awareness which IVF brings. Overall, I am sooooo calm in comparison because there isn't the thought of, "Will I ever get to be a Mother" floating around in my head. So I think the calm comes from the fact I AM, and always will be and nothing can take that away. Sigh of relief. However, I enjoyed having a sibling! Although I have many close girlfriends that can be considered "sisters", there is just something about having that blood relationship. SO, here's to hoping and praying this round goes well.

I know it will all pan out exactly how it's meant to be, but we are sure hoping for another happy, healthy little nug for our Christmas Miracle.

Happy Holidays to all!!


XO,
Andi