39 weeks and still baking.... Cs date tomorrow!!

Who in the world would have expected this little chica to still be cozy and baking at 39w? NOT ME! My bags have been packed for weeks expecting another 36 ish water break and 37w delivery, but not this little lady. I'm hoping that's a sign that she's going to be my chill child. I am a firm believer that how you come into this world (even how you are en utero) is already your natural make up as to how you will approach life as a child and an adult. My older sister was born early and is impatient, cant stand surprises, and always in the know! She is always a few steps ahead of everyone else. Me however, born nearly 4 weeks later after my Mom had to chug caster oil, have always been laid back and go with the flow. Sure I have my Type A traits and stay ontop of things, but when it comes to life, my approach is very much a "what will be will be" sort of logic. I'm so excited to see what she looks like and how her little personality is!!

 

Tomorrow is our scheduled repeat Cs to meet her! We originally went into this pregnancy seeing if I could VBAC as she's been head down, but the risk with inducing and VBAC'ing goes up 10 fold. I'm not THAT pro VBAC to endure the risks for her and I, even though it would have been cool to experience both ways. At least this way I know what I'm getting into, and even better my sister will be in the OR as I've decided to use another ON-Q pump, so that will be extra special as she'll be there to help the surgeon place it if need be.

 

This last day as a Mama of one I've been trying to nap, relax, get some laundry done and organize some things for my in-laws and parents who will be helping out with Adlee while I'm in the hospital. I am so excited to finally introduce her to her little sister & she is starting to know something is just around the corner as well!! This pregnancy has been 180 different than Adlee's, so I hope that doesn't mean the L&D experience won't go as smoothly as hers did, or recovery. All of that is out of my hands, and in less than 24 hours we will be holding our little lady and allll of this will be behind us. The infertility journey, the high and low risk pregnancies..... we will be closing this chapter on growing our family and will be completed as a Family of 4!!!

 

I can hardly wait!!

 

 

XO,

Andi

37w pregnant, losing steam, patience is a virtue!

This time, last pregnancy, my water broke and I was off to have Adlee who was born at exactly 37w. This round, I'm 37w and I am only 1cm dilated and 50% effaced. I know that's not 100% indicative of going into labor as Adlee was also only 1cm dilated at this time when she broke my water, but I do have to say it's a little discouraging to hear when you're SO READY to meet your little sweetie.

 

As I've stated before, this pregnancy is 180 different from Adlee's so I wonder how it's all going to shake out. The discomfort from her being head down is definitely a different sensation than a breech child, and with Adlee although I had swelling and Carpal Tunnel (I now have that with this child) I also have Restless Leg Syndrome and Insomnia with this one. I wouldn't wish RLS (or CP for that matter) on my worst enemy. The RLS keeps me up twitching and itching and the nerve response to all of that is just out of this world frustrating and exhausting. I hope to God I don't go until my 39.6w scheduled Cs on 4/30!!! I'll be 39w on 4/25 but that's only 2 days prior to Adlee, and I really don't want her day to be about me in a hospital with the new baby for her 3rd birthday. So, I shall suffer a few more days until I get to hold little lady #2 if it comes down to that.

The great news is work has been going really well, and I've been crushing my quota which means I can work from home mainly managing orders and rest when needed during the day. I have #momguilt about dropping Adlee at school on the days I have little work, but I know she's entertained there with her school friends better & I'm able to relax and put my feet up and nap when necessary. There are many parts of the day where you have to push away the guilt and tell yourself that they are cared for and loved and that's what really matters. I'm sure it's not going to get easier with a second, but rather much harder to juggle both. On top of it all, Adlee is entering her "threenager" year and is starting to push back on authority, challenge the rules, have 3 year old meltdowns and all of that fun stuff! We are going to be in for it with Little Miss Independent/Headstrong very soon + Little Sis. Here's to hoping she takes the Big Sis role by the reigns and becomes helpful vs. jealous. Time will tell....

 

Although this time in my pregnancy is challenging, I'm trying to take it one day at time and try and enjoy the fact she is my last. Still contemplating VBAC vs. repeat Cs, and trying to "Give it to God" as know he already has it all mapped out and it is always perfect in His way, in His time. Some days are easier than others for sure, at this stage a day feels like a year, but people have certainly endured worse; including myself in the wait for conception. I certainly thank my lucky stars that we've made it this far and have another little miracle soon to arrive for us to love on.

Life is so good, we are so blessed, and cannot WAIT to meet Little Miss AC :)

 

 

 

XOX,

Andi