Back to my roots

After 2 months short of a year of being on what feels like a hundred different meds, I've decided that enough is enough and that I need to take matters into more natural/holistic hands. This whole TTC process has been discouraging, exhausting, and out of my comfort level. Coming from someone who only takes Advil or antibiotics to someone on some pretty potent daily meds (Clomid, Letrozole, Ovidrel, Progesterone) has been quite the road. This gals synthetic journey has finally come to an end. Although those meds regulated me, they made me bloated, tired, overly emotional and miserable. I feel that they have robotically made my body to perform, but obviously that still hasn't done the overall trick. It's time to get back to my "roots" and try some herbal, natural remedies for my irregular hormones & cycles. 

As we approach another year, it has made me reflect on the one passed. It's been an intense year with significant work training & travel as well as selling a house & a move while building another. In one word, I have been cloudy. I've been incapable of living life to it's fullest, and for that reason, I've decided it's time for a play off from it all. I don't want to reflect come 2014 and feel this way then as well. 

I'm not sure if it was the fifth time in a month that my doctor replied "well, as I say, ovaries have a mind of their own" when he couldn't answer the answer to my question {well then what the HAY am I doing here paying all this money for you?!? Clearly I'm smart enough to know THAT much douche}. Or, the fact I was recapping things with B and he cut me off by saying "Andi, seriously listen to yourself, you sound like a doctor! I can't even keep up with the amount of medical terminology you just used. Enough". 

As much as I'm a stubborn, bull headed, never give up type of person by nature, he's right, enough is enough. This way is not a way that's true to what I have always wanted or believed. I've wanted to treat my overall body vs only one area {my ovaries} and that's what I intend to try.

It's not easy to explain what it's like being in my shoes, but I'm thankful that I do have a group of other friends who are also going through their own sorts of fertility issues. I'm ready to fully live life again. It will be impossible to completely suffocate my feelings on this matter but it's necessary to quiet them a bit in order to see the beauty that's around me. 

So, {raises glass} here's to Accupuncture, herbs, and clean eating!! 

Here here!

Xox,

Andi